An Urgent meeting with Me

I could not have been more prophetic - the next day turned out to be VERY interesting - rather like that Ancient Chinese Curse. I took my brothers' advice literally and put it to the test. Let me outline the bones of the event: Car keys were confiscated after a testy exchange, and I was told that he would take and fetch me, but I could not go alone. I said, absolutely not. So he was even more suspicious, and asked "who was I so determined to meet there?", I answered, "ME!", he reasoned, "So, I will take you there and you can still meet Yourself".... "No", I said, "then I would be meeting the Me-controlled-by-You!".

Stepping out of the Ring

In therapy it was explained to me that how she sees us working towards a positive resolution in our relationship, "depends on how much he is prepared to change his ways". My immediate response was to note that this is highly unlikely - after all I do know something about this man after two decades joined at the hip. When he left to go to his individual session, for what he said would be the last time, and I wished him well and hoped that it would be constructive - he turned to me and said that "there is very little she and I can do to change you. You are set on your path and have decided where you are going, so there is very little we can do. I think it is a waste of time unless you choose to change." I suggested he just start with that statement and hear what she advises, and see what can be done. He left with no response.

Unthinkable Freedom

I quote two thought-provoking authors here, Colette Dowling and Tom Robbins, as I attempt to apply these eloquent truisms to my personal life, empowering myself and supporting my inner sensibilities...
From Cinderella Complex: "freedom and independence can't be wrested from others - from the society at large, or from men - but can only be developed painstakingly, from within."

From Jitterbug Perfume: "Our individuality is all, ALL, that we have. There are those who barter it for security, those who repress it for what they believe is the betterment of the whole society, but blessed in the twinkle of the morning star is the one who nurtures it and rides it, in grace and love and wit, from peculiar station to peculiar station along lifes' bitter-sweet route."

"...To achieve the marvellous, it is precisely the unthinkable that must be thought."

"...we must think unthinkable thoughts and ask unanswerable questions. Yet we must not lose ourselves in abstract vapours of philosophy ...Never underestimate how much assistance, how much satisfaction, how much comfort, how much soul and transcendence there might be in a well-made taco and a cold bottle of beer."

"...ultimate answers cannot be given, they can only be received ... each person must figure out things for themselves."

...Read the next post for more of uncovering of my Soul in So Many Questions...?

...Read the post that preceded this one, go here: Exposed Privacy

...Start at the Beginning of the exposure of my soul, go here: The Exposed Me